and i could feel the heat and the wetness
of a touch that meant forever
it didn't have to say love to mean it
it just was
it was a shared desire and lust for every reason
that we could ever believe in.
it was hearts melding into a meaning that was more than a purpose
beyond death
i could reach out in the night and feel her breast
and the heart within the silly package of her smile
so death was permanent
but i had her heart to defend
from the pain of constant undefined death of a twin
there was no more reason for another place to hide
so we hid inside our desire
from the reality of the pain outside
here in this kiss that felt like infinity
undefinable and imaginary
it is the foundation of dreams
and the hope of the future
that can never be right now
because all we have right now
is pain
and a place to run from
so here i run
into love of kissing and fingers through your hair
and my hands and my fingers and the middle of you
so i know the extents and the limits of all that we are
my touch wants to be wanted
to be necessary and be needed
what would you be without me
without every reason why i need to be
touching
and inside and outside
all at the same time
we become one
in force and function and love
in sex
in orgasm
in hedonistic lust for each other
we die and become reborn every day
together
where the sun shines through this window on your face
to light my reason for every day
why