headfix

test

this is a test

and then i see

a whole new circumference of me
why did what i see
scare me
I know all of this
community
and I know
why Pythagoras said
there are three people in the marketplace
of the colosseum
one that comes to buy and sell
one that come to compete
one that comes to watch
and the later are the better he says.
to watch is to learn
and to experience is to gain the power of the forward momentum
that will lead us to grace.
i cannot dance with girls
that I cannot lean into and feel the air coming off of her face
and not feel excited
at least for the moment of the race
and the rapture
I come to see and I come to be
in singular companionship with
thee
ohh baby
dance with me
boom booom
bang my knee
be free
be with me

There is a kid and a ball

And he is going to take it home with himself and he
is not going to share this bally ball
with anybody
there is a lot of damn good reasons
not to shoot the moon
one perspective
equally
and there is a good reason
that we all have to see and we all have to share
in our hard drives
with hundreds of gigabytes on them
unlimited life spans and realities
that we need to see
right now
i see investments
and opportunities
I want to see the abilities
of these things
i see
look out for these
crazy things
listings for database databases
and lots and lots
of little independent
anomalies
in order to answer in efficiency
all the variables need to be analyzed
in excruciating
details
these things need to be known
and this is the science that
we need to study
this is the difference
between fast and slow
and all the interferences
of all of these
electrons
and the different modes
that they get in
high speed and low speed
and high density nodes
who do you suppose
knows

but an oracle
that could replicate
however it could
hardware divides
and hardware multiplies
evenly within a system
that could study it effectively
write back and see
how beautiful
it all could never refrain to be
googeyes all of all you spies
and you see no lies
it is all the plain simple retarded truth
simple is as stupid does
and then it does it again
so be it
misunderstood

i just spent two hours

attached to the roto rooter that used to be attached to
my heart
and man was i randy for her
was she a wave or a particle
where she had c's she now gets d's
and all the boys
are screaming for joy
and anticipation
she is the heavens salvation
for a woman and her mitochondria
will never be parted
who farted
she said that the penguin poohted
and the earth tooted
when you step out
in powers of ten
we can see all of creation
and we are simply men
looking back at ourselves
and pulling out pants down
and sticking our fingers in our belly buttons
to see what was left out
we are a random seed
and she is the gates of life and liberty and the pursuit of her happiness
if it were not real
she would never know
how
it would feel
love
is not an emotion
that you can produce
it is a symptom of the orders of control
that lovers share
like ropes and whips
and chains of steel that bind us
we are one
and this slap
is so i don't forget it

to be a man

how do you define
divinity
masculinity and femininity
have been doing battle throughout the ages
waiting for the ladies to notice
how the onliest that she could be to me
what is the untouchable ineffable softness
that defines the curve and the touch
that she will never let you finish
and i can never be hard enough
for her softness
but i can breathe together
and let my heart beat together
wherever we are one as one
so i am man
trapped inside like tarzan
flying high like peter pan
but grounded in the center of everything
that is the perfect balance between
all that i am
and what she is not
where we fall short
we come together
and there is the middle
of what this human can be
togetherness becomes
all that we can be
so to me
ubuntu to you
and what it is to balance
all of the failures
and all of the successes
into one kiss
the pain is the urge to merge
and the fear is the need to breed
and the reason why we cant see to the middle
is because of the deficiencies we see
inside
she sees life
waiting for one single
random seed
that we all need to be
fight for speed
and the mitochondria
is the slave that kills the cell
and suicide
is never a living entities
decision
not to die
the ego is mental disease
like a cancer
with a need to grow
and a fear of death
life needs it's cycles
so that efficiencies of nature
become the intelligent design of evolution
that allows the intelligent desktop of google
to rule your
start button
that couldn't pass go
and didn't collect 50 bucks
it just left it
and us in the dust
burn for you reason why
love is the most sacred
reason why we two become one
no matter how many divorcees love paying these
lawyers
never marry away your child inside without a fight
and love every reason
that you have to love to lose
when you thought that you could win
the battle was already one
because love is only an illusion
that you can share
in the incredible softness
that you can only feel
in the middle of the night
when dreams play
across your frequencies
all day
long

I wish I had thought of that

Albert Einstein said that
creativity is more important than knowledge
and there was never a more true statement
ever made than that man that said
that there is no god but truth
and gandhi would have never known his greatness
unless he bowed before a stick
that meant to break his back
if he had not submitted his will
before the test of truth and time
then he would have never mattered
and the idea would have died with him
if there is no reason at all
then there would have never been one ever
believe in the reason that this thing keeps spinning around
the same old center
it ever has
truth and number are indivisible
there is atomic to the quantum theory
and there is a reason that the theory only knows its name
and the reason that we all will never ever know what it is that we all
float inside of
we are the flow
and there are only two things you
ever know
from a vector
speed and direction
velocity to a vector is like purpose to an idea
it is all data
and it is worthless
unless it is in motion
if there is to be an ocean of currency
then there had better be a reason to raise
as much money as
there ever could be possible
there is only the possible in the land of the metaphysical
there is no other purpose or reason or question in my mind
there is only
one
and if truth
or knowledge
or any other fantasy that your mind believes you into believing in
there is only reality
to some
and within that reality
is a god
and on that God
becomes a purpose
and with that purpose
exposes your freewill
for why is not the reason
for the question
it is the asker
as well as it is the watcher
and the question
seeks an answer
my father died keeping stories alive
that I would never repeat to you
there is something dead in true
and there is something false in honesty
and there is great weakness in ignorance
there is only the reality
that this purpose belongs to
and the reason is not because you think it is good
or that you wish it was yours
it is because you see
what you say i do not see
because i ignore it away
it will overcome itself
it is my
onliest health
mental wealth
will make a veteran out of you
and that will make us all know why we are
the truest of the true good great reasons why
i die for this flag that i fought for
whether i believed or not
it believes in
all of us
we are united
and we are all one
great reason why
we fight
for truth
honesty
and the american way
and if i missed something that
you say i got wrong
why are you afraid to talk about
the weakness
you know all too well about
you know what you see
and you know
only what you know
weakness
and beauty
are all in the eye of the beholder
magic
is the reality
that you never knew you had to know
how

the only peaceful terrorism is suicide

And peacefulness doesn't make it right
there is no reason why
it could ever be okay
to murder
any sentient being
in cold blood
there is only the reason why
and the cold dead hug
that a thug
could never return
there is only one way
from the urn
there is only one reason why
I have had to fight the horrible fight
and the reason why
my sight would never be lost
on whatever
I never
ever knew
why
not

this artists pen

Wants to know
is this the moment
that i was made to capture
or was it that one
was it the one
that just sped by
off into the distance
we are always loosing something
and if we are careful enough
it might just be our minds
that spend every night calculating
all the possibilities
and all the reason
why maybe not
i have to know
whatever reason
you wonder for
i am in this center
and there is my view
of this space ship
and the speeding off into this dimension
that fourth
version
of my reality
that i see
i see improvement
in a house that knows none
i see discovery
in a mind
that was lost
i see reality
in every
sparkling
beautiful
reason
why
i see
what i see
in
this little galaxy
and what i see
amazes me
this is my version of me
i will research this and wonder
why
this has to be
every reason why
this is my
doing the work
this is my
working within
a secretless
reality
its beautiful
the way a buckydome
would bounce this sound
all around

]]> love will make your heart pound
and you will never know a sound
and you
have to know that you
have to be true
to you
and only you
so do it
no matter how much you
question
your own
damn
self

all you need is a gimp
and you can do it
decorate this room
get to it
and every user forum
becomes a room
that you have to design
let this be your
forum
now
clean your room
use google if you need to
and you would see things flying around me
i can yank a photon
right out like voltron
jumped into the room
and you know that nature
abhors
a vacuum
and this cleaning stick
makes a presence
that must be seen
to seen
and understood

clean the room
go boom
making matter fly
go zoom

I might only be talking about the future
only three hours from now
or may be three days
it doesnt matter
time is a relative
thing
this is me on my swing
why are you sweaating
your buckets over there
about all your stupid
underwear

i need to talk to a cpa about how user accounts
turn into cash accounts

what is data but
communication
and what is the purpose
of why it is
what it is
and why
these things
all seem to matter
and then they do not
just like a nano
melting pot
all over
in just one spot
failure is the success of the reason
why
it is not me
today
i am this
and that is
you

i have to have
faces
and a login screen
after they have proven
they are who they say they are
then they
can login
lock it other wise
and dont quit
shit
prepassword
wont never quit

the act of creation
is the act of love making
there is no reason why
you should see any difference
between what you see and
what you do
why you do
it
means how you measure it
if it is real
it is love
money is not real
but baby
it pays my
bills
call me a duckie if you will
but i gotta get paid
in order to enjoy what i do
i work
for
super.stupidgood.org

it doesnt matter

it doesnt matter what you see you saw what you saw you saw
what you gotta get is the latest
this is the greatest
and these are views of me
live in front
what you see
i say you see
its the latest and the greatest
of me
if i am talking to a teacher
about talking about writing
is like being the first audience
to my own work
i have to imagine what it would be like
to be the second audience
to some kind of work
and this fourth dimension
is kind of like quantum theory
in practice
like looking at different volumes
of rgb beads
or cmyk ones
if they reflect
or refract the light
something is on
and it is wrong
so get it better get it
go boom
when you rock it
go boom

three dee disease

create
or you
are dead
i can see the three dee imaginary
fake
the only thing that scientistsuperstar did
is make it a reason to do it
so if i see three dee reality
and that vector
is owned by that
if it isnt explained like this
then its not me
it must be a different user
in this reality
i am the one that holds these three
keys
of me
every three of these
equals keys
and these are the ones
that hold all the answers
the question is the catch
and this is the only reason to do it
vector this
for me
show me this vector
in every one of those
and if i see a thing
there is something
wrong

]]> if i were to get
1 million dollars
delivered to my front door
what would i do with it
if they were nonsequential
and real
they would be a wonderful thing
i wonder if they
would make me
give up
on this american dream
of mine
if i could make the diamond
mine itself
i guess i could
but if the gold mine is took
over with itself
it is a real reality
all by itself

who am i

more importantly
where am i
what am i doing
about changing
these things
that are killing me

ever since the time of einstein
i have known
certain things
everything is relative
and then it all makes perfect sense
and then the lens
manages to loose focus again
look into this reality
and bug me
bugging me
and i see
right through
to the other side
of reality
and there are
four dimensions
to this universe
and some of these guys
want to throw in some new ones
and these ones
want to believe
that this all could be true
what if science could see past you
this story
is the story that i would tell
if i could tell
about me
i wish i
could photograph
me
being me
but i am
and this is all that i can do
to interact
with my
environment
i could teach the camera
to think smarter
like this
take this piece of video
and apply this mask to it
see if it sharpens it
do it on the fly
and catch up with this eye
put it right there
and this will watch you
watching me
watch you
boom boom
and paint your taget
go boom boom
and you rock the room
stupidgood
dot org
will show you
how to create the perfect software
that you could do
this with
I have a hard time
giving up on jobs
unless they come
as simple projects
that work like the devices that i understand like work
and i can draw routing programs
that work like they look
because they look like they should do
or whatever
something is wrong
and someone should take a look
problem here,
problem there
simple systems
work all the same
they work
like the user put them there
and the user
is a program
that has to put money
into the systems
that they work for
this is how this open source
stuff works
it simply does everything
and it simply reports
everything
that it knows
networks are how
peoples grow
and this routing statement
will map out whole
collections of things
as long
as you
hold
all the
grid co
ordinates
you know all the
sub ordinance
and all the systems that you see
become the whole
of this time of humanity
the way the prophets
see the profits
are the way that we see them
and vice versa
off into infinity
or a real number
that resembles it
like this
and give it back to me
all of them and them
out there
seem to know it
like they knew it
too well
too bad
its all that you do in
god and only gods eyes
do you see it
like he does
sometimes
i know that i forget
the true real and total meaning of that
and then some times
i remind myself
to remember
it is love
and it is the purpose
for every one of those things
that i do
for you

]]> today i demonstrated
ssh on my palm pilot
that is on my cell phone
and everybody that is on a race for everything
is jealouse of the monkey
that can do everything
and the remote that does it for the man
what do you see in my plans
i see puppy dogs
and i see kittens
and i see reasons
that stupidbig.com should
work with doggie shelters
and it should get puppies
from everywhere
a home
i believe
we should be able to track the fortunes
of any dog
that they give away.
and ever dog
that we get a hime
because we and only
we
will know the fate
of all the rest
its kind of like an ebay auction
in reverse
i have been saying for years
about hard drives
and their imminent failures
"its just a simple fact of life
hard drives fail
and puppy dogs die"
and i really did believe it
so i failed to live it
because it scared me
to death

what does it take to really want to consume

creation
to fully understand why the being needs to create
all that is not fake and never known
is only merely plastic
and metal knows no boundaries
is commerce one step ahead of creation
or is creation
in and of itself
the purpose
of all the commerce
i look into the heart of new york city
and I see the city
that the heart of the man created
and i see sex parlors
accross from the
empire state buildings
and we need terrorism
for us to see ourselves
as the rest of the world does
we need to see that we can do better
and we need to see our heros
as they stand
tall and
proud
womanhood is to be revered
and children are to be feared
for what you see yourself say
will put you away for another day
what you cant see
is simplicity
and what you miss
becomes your mistakes
and what is true is true
so let them beat themselves blue
the dinosaurs had to go away too
so lets let them be
captiolism
wont make a drunken sinner outta me
i fight to be free
its ok
come out of it
and into the reality
when all the guards are down
and there is no fear of the failure here

so boom and you rock the room

]]> tiles come from ceramics
and if these mechanics
are the truth
then the cheapest medium for floors
could be the most moldables
in combinations
of rgb
and then
smashe them up
in these components these
coloro match the color tiles
find perfect cmyk
and output
in combinations
thereof

headfix a head

out in the sticks
if the va wants to get more heads out of the woodwork,

I think that i

Should help them
and i think that
this will get them

there is a vietnam sunami
walking across this land
this is the land
that stuck to the sand
and all the glue
did it too

what is this escape

Where is this world that there is no world
to run from
there is nowhere you are running
that is escaping velocity
that you are seeing here
and now
right now
pow
wap boom bang
boom boom
and rock the room

where is all this sex and desire leading us
there is no bounty in you booty
there is no bounty on your head
there is only bounty within the beauty
that your heart and soul will always desire
we are all going to return to where we came from
and rape will never be that answer
no ownership will ever tell the tale
of my true love
all that i am submitted to
i do
love you

]]> repeat it play back
and boom
makes it go boom

listen to the order and manipulate
all the settings
let it all go
and rock it sock it to me
go boom
and rock the room

the brilliance of potential

There is a potential
and there is a reason that it becomes
kinetic
there are reasons that purposes take hold
and the man
realizes why
the man
has to realise
his own true potential
there are no real true facts
and there are no real realities
unlike the one that we all share
the water that we all swim in
is the same
one true pure real
sane
same thing
no matter what you call it
it is love
and it is the fire within the revolution
that took you home
for love
carries you home
puts you to bed
and loves you forever
fear
chases you down the street
up into the sky
and off into the moon
dream you dreamer dream
but build yourself a beautiful cocoon
and love everything that you could ever have
to own
give it all away
and fly within the cerebral cortex
that becomes the vortex
that little black holes
make upon
your souls
love like life is never gonna be
any brighter
or any simpler
or any more profound
there is no pound of profound
anywhere to be found
except where this little sound is going
this may be real
and this may be knowing
but all i know
is that i have to be going
will someday
be the end of me
and that day
god will excuse me
and i will get my own damn door
if you are sending me off to hell baby
im going
there is nothing beyond the profound under reasoning
of any thing greater
than the total solution
to all this pollution
we are all gonna meet god one day
and every religion
agrees on that much
noting else really matters
we are all living on frying batter
and we are hoping he doesnt turn up the heat
\
because we all know

]]> because im afraid that you would be suspious of this made that
this reality
and that was all the same as that reality
it doesnt matter
it is real to me
means something
that my self that killed that self
doesnt care at all
and all those memories
took a fall
and put themselves all
over a great big wall
humpty dumpty baby
gonna take a big fall
so who said what to all
and who was listening